Just Let It Go

On Sunday, I was sitting in front of the TV watching the Jets-Colts game and grading papers. While grading, the brand new green gel pen I bought (in a pack of other additional colours) began to skip and act as if it was out of ink. No matter what I did, the pen just would not write. Annoyed, I rose from my comfortable seating position, went to the office (only to immediately hear the game's commentators announce some major play), and retrieved another pen. I sat back down, maneuvered myself into another comfortable position, motioned for my dog to sit beside, and resumed grading. About 20 minutes later, the new green pen began to write like the last one. Grrr. I got up, slammed the papers down, retrieved both pens and tossed them in the trash.

Before this moment, I would have attempted to save those pens and make them write at some later time. I have oodles upon oodles of pens that are waiting for me to help make them work properly. It was at that moment that I realized letting go of these two stupid pens was completely okay. It was okay not because I can afford to buy new pens or because I have some space to house the two that don't work. It was okay because I no longer have to deal with any mental attachment or connection to those pens. I know that sounds weird, but the lesson I learned applies to more than just those two menial objects.

I am enduring some difficult personal drama at the moment. This drama all but consumes my mental, physical, emotional energy. Couple that with the stresses of everyday living and I am on edge - I mean Grandmaster Flash don't push me 'cause I'm close to the....EDGE...edge. Throwing out those pens, as futile as that may seem, made me realize that there are some things that are just not worth holding on to: pens, fabric, people, relationships, etc. At some point, one must realize that if letting something go makes you less of a nut, then do it. Trust me, the world is in no immediate shortage of stressed out folks.

So, whatever it is you're holding on to, let it go. Just let it go. I am no guru. Tomorrow, I may be saying something different. I know that in this moment, this is what is. Some parting words from Deepak Chopra:

“Be willing to stop judging against yourself. Bad urges don’t make you a bad person.”

L~